I got settled into my new room at the mental facility where I had just arrived. This was my second mental facility within a month. This time, my euphoria had been completely stripped away. I no longer believed a spirit was coming to save me. I no longer believed I was there to save other…
I was sitting in a locked facility, waiting for the staff to come and take away my things. I had been through this process a month ago, and I was prepared for what was about to come. My purse had very little in it at this point. After throwing several of my items in a…
There were two major components to my psychosis. Saving the world and creating a new one. Have you heard the expression “we create our own reality”? I heard this several times while studying matters of spirituality. Somewhere along the way, I formed a belief that if I visualized what I wanted to develop, it…
Before I start this blog, I want to clearly state that I do not subscribe to any religion or firm belief structure. As I write about my experiences, I focus on what my perception of the events were at the time. I fully recognize that my perception may have been influenced by my past, bipolar…
I fell in love with a spirit. At least, I developed feelings for something I perceived as a spirit. Those of you who don’t believe in such things, may explain my haunting tale as a Bipolar manifestation. I am actually okay with that assumption. Most of the time it’s easier for me to think…
I love reading your blog! I have never had an experience like this but have heard of such things.. I am very interested in psychology and am dying to know more about what causes bipolar and how to identify it. Is this experience part of that or is it a seperate spiritual gift you have? Thank you for sharing. ReplyCancel
Thank you so much for reading. Typically people who have Bipolar are born with the predisposition. The onset of illness is often triggered by stress. I believe I have had Bipolar my entire life but it wasn’t until I had a psychotic break that I was diagnosed. Once I accepted the diagnosis, a lot about my life made sense. As far as the spiritual gifts go, I have no way of knowing if any of them are real or if it’s all Bipolar related. The blog entries I will be doing in the future will address more on that.ReplyCancel
Fascinating. Very glad to hear another person with bipolar talk about hypersexuality! “Sex became all I could think about and my want when I get in this mind set, isn’t flowers and romance. It can be far more dangerous without parameters.” I relate to this so much & have engaged in lots of risky, reckless sex when manic. Great post x ReplyCancel
My conflicting personal hang-ups have made it difficult for me to tell the next part of my story. From the title of this blog, you are clued into what is coming next. My guess is there will be three types of responses on the posts to come… 1. “This is fascinating. I don’t have the…
In June of 2016 I lost my most faithful companion. My dog, Chewbacca. Chewbacca had been my trusty sidekick for over a decade and during that time, unbeknownst to me, he became more than my pet. He became my emotional support dog. Chewbacca was brought into the family around the same time as my youngest…
Hey. I was pointed this way from your friend Alyssa. I have bipolar II and just started reading your blog (I have one of my own). So far I’ve read you post about body image and this one, and I relate so much to both. I had a dog that was so special to me that I had to euthanize in 2017 and I feel like you really get what it was like. Just wanted to drop a line and say I love your honesty and openness. <3ReplyCancel
I am so sorry for your loss. Such an event can throw your emotions into a tailspin and take your mental health right with it. I have been with my emotional support dog for over 15 years and I can’t imagine my life without her. When the time comes, I don’t know if I’ll be able to handle it.
I hope you’re getting better one day at a time.
Best of luck 💚ReplyCancel
You are beautiful, strong, and amazing. I believe in you.
Thank you Michelle! I am extremely grateful for your support. Thank you for reading.